Well maybe it is Karma.....good days never last long.
Yesterday I found out that a former friend and co-worker of mine is pregnant after lots of drama with fertility drugs........And I could barely keep a straight face and smile to tell the girl that told me how happy I am for the other girl.......
I feel horrible that I can never truly feel happy for people telling me about their good news
because I am sooo angry about not getting any good news myself.
I feel like I am now officially the only person left in the world that cannot get pregnant.
I wish there would be more people online like me.
Just a single woman trying to achieve a dream that comes so easy for most everyone in the world.
Plus today I feel lonely and sooo alone....as good as I felt yesterday about not being with the guy that actually had someone else on the side today I keep stupidly thinking that at least I was not alone.........stupid yes I know.
Well 2 more days till I should hear some more news about my donor....(that I still know nothing about)
SO I keep on smiling and hoping that one day it will be my turn.......
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