Sunday, February 28, 2010

tired

so this week I have been super tired again.
Hardly got anything accomplished and got sooo much to do.

The way it looks me and the little one will be moving in July...
Lease is up....should start throwing stuff out, donate, sell...
and am tooo tired too

don't have a lot of help either....guess u see who your friends are
when u are going to be a mommy instead of a drinking buddy.

ah oh well i much rather be a mommy

and I will get everything done...by myself if I have to.
Have appointsments with some movers for estimates.
have a lot of stuff on ebay and more to put on.
May try craigs list but am a little scared of that

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

baby update

So baby is fine....hearbeat great.
And I am apparently not to fat anymore. But still should watch carbs....like even cereal is bad....heck I am a healthy eater...am about to say these people can kiss my ass....
sorry but come on...

Well most important they said baby is fine and has a great heartbeat. All the measurements seemed okay as well. My sugar level okay too.

And now they want me to count the babies kicks when he/she kicks in the morning and in the evening....
Has to be at least ten in and hour.

I have no clue what if it is not 10....guess I will call 911....hehe

now going to find my inner calm...sigh

Stressing

so I have two people that yelled from the beginning that they wanna give me a baby shower....then things dies down and nobody said a word.
I spent lots of time and effort to register at 4 different places.

Now everyone is dragging their feet.
Apparently I am having one shower for work people and one for others.
The work people I was told to make sure to invite people even if I may not like them because my friend and coworker that throws me the shower has to work with them...and now her and her daughter cannot make up their mind about a date....nobody approves my people list...phone calls and emails get ignored...when approached in person she acts like I never called....sorry but it is stressing me....

so i bought invitations and thank u cards today because I was told to do so...now I don't like them and gonna buy other ones tomorrow.

I don't seem to ever get anything done.....grrrr
People seem to forget that I am pregnant, slow and cannot do a lot of things for myself.
think I need a hot shower and my bed...before I will be getting ugly with someone...

Monday, February 22, 2010

28 weeks.....12 to go

Saturday, February 20, 2010

sigh...lil stressed

So my 3 hour glucose test results were fine...but I was kinda pissed that these people stressed me out like this...heck this is my first child and it took me a long time to get here....so why all this fuzz...don't freak me out and steal my sleep.

Have another doctors appointment next week...and I am gonna tell my doc or nurse practioner or whoever I get to see...that I do not wanna know if I get to fat...don't tell me to lay off carbs and sugar . they are in freaking everything...

so I am gonna open my big mouth...and tell them unless it is life threatenign for me and baby ...leave me be I need my sleep..

jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez

Monday, February 15, 2010

Doctor called this morning ....now sugar level normal....feel like being jerked around...but happy everything is fine
27 weeks....and today I Feel like a clumsy hippo

Sunday, February 14, 2010

the Glucose testing thing

So last week I had a one hour and a three hour Glucose test.
And I can hardly wait for the results...I am not scared ...I am fine with whatever result.
BUT...I wanna know cause ever since my doctor told me in January that I am getting to fat...and to lay of carbs and sugar ...I have been super paranoid what to eat. Everything has carbs and sugar in it.
And its not like I eat candy bars or drink sodas...far from

So I want results and someone to tell me what to eat.
Bad enough I have no appetit as it is...except for breakfast....that is the only time I am hungry...the rest of the day I just eat because I have to.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Glucose level very high

SIGH
I did my Glucose Test this week and they told me the levels were too high. Now I have to do a 3 hour test to find out if I have gestational diabetes.
I am so freaked out and scared...

I don't drink sodas.
I don't eat candy.
I don't eat sweets...except for the 2 first weeks of this year I went nuts on sweets...but they say that did not cause it.

Turns out if you eat too many potatoes and carbs it turns into sugar and that can mess you up.
Well...nice
For 13 weeks all i could eat is waffles and potatoes.

I am sooo panicked.....
And the weird part is ...ever since they told me I gained to much weight I was worried something is not right...
Also weird I don't look big....

Oh boy....time to collect all my strength and faith again....I can do this ....I will be fine....I HAVE TO BE
oh forget about me ....I mean the baby has to be....
So I am gonna try to chill...watch TV go to bed and get up in the morning to do my test....

breathe......YES me and the lil one can do this..

Monday, February 8, 2010

26 weeks

Friday, February 5, 2010

for every negative there is a positive...

So I have been struggling with the negative comments and lack of support of some people...
But today I got 2 positives....2 of my coworkers were so very sweet today
and one gave me the cutest gift for me ...and one for the baby...

that just made my day and kept me smiling..

plus I am cutting the negative commenters outta my life....and nope I will not feel guilty...nope
I spent 30 years trying to please people. Be who they want me to be or look like I should and behave like i should.
Now it is my time and the babies and we are gonna be who we are and who we wanna be...

yeah me!!!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

the power of the belly

although I have my ups and downs...mostly influenced by work and ignorant people.............I cope

I take a moment, rub my belly and talk to the baby and smile and I know that I am a fighter and have made it this far and so nobody can bring me down.
I might loose my job when I had the baby but I don't even care anymore it opens new avenues for me....makes me make big decisions I may have been afraid of...

I am sooo much stronger than I gave myself credit for...
and now I am a team....now it is me and the lil one in that belly and we are gonna be okay no matter what the world hurls at us.

sigh.......yes I can....smile

I know I am pregnant...

but sometimes I still look at my belly and wonder if it is really true.
I wonder if I am jsut bloated....
And then I feel the slight kicking......smile
lol the last time I said I wanted to feel pregnant I got 24hr morning sickness for 13 weeks...so I should not beg to feel more pregnant....hehe

This is a strange journey ....but wonderful...
Why are people trying to be annoying and difficult?....I am pregnant and tired ...give me a break..please

Monday, February 1, 2010

25 weeks....is it normal to panic a little now?