sigh...

....not sure what's going on with me this month...my temp. chart is of the wall, and I don't think I have ovulated....I am a little down....and I cannot sleep or relax anymore...the harder I try the worse it gets....hmmmm]

but as usual I am not giving up.

feeling better today

Okay so my acupuncture treatment today made me feel better.
Wednesday I have an appointment with my psychiatrist.
And NASCAR season starts....
so I am gonna be okay.
I feel a lot better today.
Thank goodness....I was a lil worried.

I feel down and have more than the blues...

These days I feel like shit.
The painkillers I took for my sinus pain when I had this aweful cold. the past few weeks
messed up my stomach and I probably have an ulcer.
I had been doing so good. I was confident in myself and my progress.
Now I feel miserable, depressed and very stressed.
Eating gives me heartburn for 4-6 hours.....I am crying all the time for nothing, I am depressed.
Everything bothers me....this sucks...

And I don't know how to fix it.
And I am for once gonna have a hard time putting that smile back on my face and keep going.
Dear God I just wanna be normal. No issues!
Sigh.

Smile....I wow I am gonna make it....I will be okay.....(and I write this with tears streaming down my cheeks)

I am once again hanging in there

Once again I am just hanging in there....waiting...which I am no good at.

Waiting till I get the green light to go to the clinic and test my hopefully revived eggs.

So I get the blues a little but I am in no way letting myself be depressed.

I figured out that I am so much stringer then I thought I was so I am gonna continue on with this journey. I don't even mind anymore that I do it all by myself... I am okay with it.

I am looking forward to the cycle that just started...hopefully it goes well.

finally getting over my cold

Well I am finally getting over this aweful cold.
Boy I think this is the worst cold I have ever had in my life.
And I am so glad I can go on with my life.
Since I have weekly acupuncture treatments I have to work a lot of overtime
to keep up and pay of my debt at the infertility clinic. So being sick and working
50-60 hours has been very draining. So I am looking forward to feeling better
every day so I can cope with normal daily life.

Still dragging around a cold

Well I am still dragging around a cold. I have had my face swollen for days, my sinus to be precise. And I have had real bad sinus pains.
Thank goodness I had an acupuncture appointment today....one treatment cleared out my nose in 20 minutes and I could breathe....first time this week through my nose.
yeahhhh!

But I have also taken so many pain killers in the last two days that I started having real bad heart burn that has lasted for the last several hours.
But I guess my cold is almost over and I can concentrate on life again.