Had a wonderful xmas with my one supporting parent....and got little cute baby clothes....20 weeks today

Finding baby clothing, if u don't wanna know if it is a boy or a girl, is nearly impossible.
baby shower will be difficult....sigh

baby update

baby is fine...weighs about 8oz.

and heartbeat is fine

but I had another very annoying doctors visit...more later...gotta cool down first

I burnt my belly.....

Boy I am such an idiot...I have soup cooking on the stove and stand on my toes to grab something (totally unimportant) out of the cabinet above the stove...and I guess I forgot I had a little belly and burnt it on the rim of the pot. It is not bad just looks like a little scratch...
So i hope I did not freak out or upset or hurt the baby...

boy this is gonna be fun if I am gonna be clumsy with a belly from now on.
Wow.
thank god I have a doctors appointment tomorrow so they can put my mind at ease...sigh

gosh I am soooo stupid

I have a baby bump

hehe...
all of a sudden in the last two days I developped a baby bump over night..
this is soooooo cool...

I finally feel good enough to be happy.

And to get things cleaned, washed and organized at my house...

yeapeeeeee

yeahaaaaa I can eat

I can eat ...its a miracle...
the weird thing is I still don't crave food and am not hungry but I can eat.
Went to a buffet two days in a row with friends and had salad ( I used to eat salad almost every night for dinner but have not had any in 3 months), tacos and different soups....
I was waiting to get sick from eating all this different stuff but i felt fine.
I am so excited...hehe

keeping my chin up

So i am trying my best not to let the world or shall I say my family put me down.
And the ones not supporting me don't even know about the egg donation part just the sperm donor part....wow many conservative people in my family.
guess they would have rather seen me turn into a miserable alcoholic with 17 cats then have a baby the NOT-NORMAL way.

very strange to me.

Hey i may be far in debt and have no plan as in how to afford a 2 bedroom apartment or how to make it with my paycheck but I have friends that will help me and although I am not super religious I do believe that since god got me this far he will get me the rest of my way.

I am the happiest I have ever been ...even if I don't look it and even when I feel miserable.

And I stick with the one cat....haha...I don't miss getting drunk and stupid at all....I just sometimes miss coffee....especially my pumplin spice latte....but i got to smell it the other day...it smelled great....
SMILE

sigh

sigh I don't feel pregnant I just feel like shit....
no end in sight...still nauseous...still can't hardly eat...no appetite....no cravings.

no baby bump....

lol ...I should stop complaining ...last time I said i wanna feel pregnant was in week 5 and shortly thereafter I got slapped with 24/7 nausea...hehe

So I stick with my nausea and daily headache and all my other issues because i can't handle more stuff wrong with me or I am not gonna make it to work anymore.

So I have a few maternity clothes now that I have to keep pulling up because I have no belly to hold them up yet...I am getting more excited as the nausea wears off a bit but overall I feel to bad every day to even remember half the time what day it is...

But I am hanging in there ...

also have another appointment with a specialist coming up....