...up to 4 patches

So as of tonight I am up to 4 patches.

And so far so good....

The waiting is driving me crazy, it gives me too much time to think.

And all that hormone stuff is making me a little nuts.

Last week I felt ugly and old.

This week I feel lonely and wish I would have a man.

Sigh.

And I seem to just analyze my whole life and where I went wrong.

Would I have been able to get pregnant 10 years ago. Or was I never able?

I just feel like I did something to screw up a lot of relationships and maybe screwed up my

chances to have children with my own eggs.

Other than that I have been eating healthy and taking all my vitamins.

So I am willing myself to be calm and wait patiently.