sleep training

so my newest project is sleep training. and it sucks. So my lil one has always slept in her own bed...but for a few weeks now she cries as soon as I put her near the bed. So we have started sleep training...meaning I have to let her cry and cannot take her out except for changing diaper... The first night I cried...the second I cleaned the whole appartment the third night I cleaned again...so lets see how long this takes cause it is like pure torture for me. Sigh

doing good

quick update we are doing good..no we are doing great. trying to settle into a bed routine. boy that is not easy but I am soo enjoying being a mommy no matter how hard it is sometimes Happy Spring will try to organize my time better and blog more often

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

Happy Valentines Day everyone!

I think for the past 10 years I never had a Valentine.....somehow I always ended up single on this happy day....well I guess I am a little romatically challenged anyway.
Usually I am always depressed on VDay....
This year I don't need a man...I have my lil angel that smiles at me and scratches at me and kicks me...that is good enough for me.
She is my angel and I love her soooooooooooo much.
Happy Valentines Day to the Love of my Life....my lil daughter.

should I start a new blog?

So I have been thinking about this for a while and got an encouraging comment as well.
I really would like to start a new blog just about being a mom but then I always think my life of mommyhood would just be soooo plain boring ...haha
although it keeps me busy.

But we really don't do anything really exciting or interesting.
We are slowly building our lil routines. Like a going to bed routine and we are doing pretty darn good. We gotten over the first cold, started waiving ....
and are babbling up a storm.
Still no crawling but working on it.

Life is technically really boring cause we really don't do much but to me it is exciting with every new day because I get to see that lil smile and be excited about all the new stuff my lil angel figures out every day.

It's funny how long it took for me to realize she really is mine...I can't even explain it.

Somedays I wish she would crawl or walk already and somedays I wish she would be 3 weeks old again....sigh

Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone!!!!

wow my little one is already 8 months old...how time flies...
we are moved in to our own place now and are starting our own daily routines.
She is turning around and sometimes back....she is sooo eager to try walking forgetting that she cannot ...its funny

Every day is a new adventure and I am loving every minute of it. Even though by 8pm I am sooo tired I could go to bed...haha

My prayer for this year are with everyone trying to have a baby...may your dreams come true...the road is hard ....never give up!!!

smiles and hugs to everyone!!!

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to everyone

I wanted everything to be oh so perfect for my lil baby girl....but I am in the middle of my apartment being finished remodelling and moving stuff in and putting furniture together so I had a tree late and decorated late and that just drove me crazy.

But then it snowed and we have a white Christmas and that is just awesome. Plus my 7 months old does not exactly care about xmas anyway.....haha...or presents for that matter.

Hope everyone has a blessed holiday and I will pray for everyone to have their wishes come true as mine has.

hugs to everyone and a merry christmas

winter and xmas season

wow how time flies...my lil angel is almost 7 months old now.
she has seen her first snow, eats food out of a glas and instead of taking 3 hrs to eat she now takes 3 hrs to go to sleep...hahaha
but I am loving every minute I get to spend with her.
I am truly blessed and sooo very happy.

I miss my old home in the States...but I will be okay....yeap

oh and I have no idea what to buy her for xmas...thoughts?

we are doing great

my lil one is absolutely adorable...she adapted well to her new surroundings...we spent a lot of time outdoors and she got a great color now.

It is so funny how people say she looks like me...haha..,how could she?

I was soooo worried about that but I do not care..she is beautiful no matter who she looks like

AND she has a little birth mark that is similar to one I had in the same spot when I was a baby.....maybe a sign of god to let me know she is ALL mine no matter what?

wow I think this whole experience made me a lil religious...smile

the most important thing....while I walk with her in her stroller out in the fields on a beautiful fall day...I realize that I am HAPPY...sigh

this is my love at one day old...

sigh,..,,sooo busy

omg I feel so bad for not posting anymore.

Well we have not successfully moved to Europe. My lil angel was an absolut trooper on the long flight.,..she just slept...she is awesome. The decision to move was not easy but I am from a small village where we have family, the air is clean and fresh, its not to hot to be outside like it was in Texas. And she is gonna be surrounded with family. We can walk to the post office, the grocery store and to grandpas....its sooo nice.

Of course I miss all my friends in the US but I believe I did what is best for my lil angel.

Its not always easy but we are gonna make it.

update

sorry for being such a bad blogger...but wow my lil angel has kept me soooo super busy.
I am happy when I get food and sleep but I am loving every minute of it.

so I am moving back to Europe after 17 years...we are all packed ready to go and leaving the end of the months.
And once things are all settled in...I promise I will blog more.

Dont give up on me yet

Laptop died ...cannot blog...things going miserable...breast feeding not working and i feel like such a failure

Had a baby girl this week...now i am trying to figure out the art of breast feeding

Its a baby girl and I am so very happy..I DID IT

one week to go

Had my last doctors visit today.
Everything is fine...nothing is going on yet so baby is not gonna be early ....whew
good...

Scheduled c-section next week...

Feels weird cause my belly seems so small.....asked my doc today.
She said its because I am tall...so baby has more space to strech out so that is why I don't have a huge belly sticking out.

Hey works for me...hehe

Don't feel like i am having a baby soon....no huge belly, still fit behind the steering wheel easily, no appetite, just waddle a bit....haha

38 weeks.....relaxing in bed with 'da cat'.....

funny things about being pregnant

• your belly seems small in the morning and huge at night after u ate all day
• u loose balance when trying to sit down and getting back up and sometimes fall back down
• turning around in bed takes serious practice
• to get outta bed takes rolling to the exit side and then slowly pushing yourself into a sitting position with your arms before u can get out...haha
• in your last few weeks u get seriously tired of going to the bathroom ..it gets annoying..haha
• your belly has all sorts of odd shapes
• just from trying to getting comfortable in bed you are outta breath

yeah it is funny....lots of funny and strange things

can't wait to see what baby looks like

okay I am ready...cannot wait to see what the baby looks like.

One one hand I am wondering and am a little afraid if the baby looks nothing like me (and how can it not) what will people say? do I care? Maybe a little.

But on the other hand people always say : Oh he/she looks just like you even if they do not.

My cousin has one child that look like neither her nor her husband.

I think I am just worried about everything for the last two weeks...sigh

But I am still soooooooo excited to see what my baby is gonna look like

swelling

so there is not much to report....just counting the days.
Glad I do not have to work to much longer.
My feet get huge every day ...sometimes before lunch.
And sometimes the swelling does not even really go down over night.
so I am glad when work is down and I can put my feet up all day when I need to.

baby update

so the baby is still in breach and my doc scheduled a c-section in two weeks.

I am excited, scared and full of a bunch of different emotions.
This is also my last week at work....maybe forever as I am considering miving back home.
Nobody knows..sigh

yeah lots going on.