can't wait to see what baby looks like

okay I am ready...cannot wait to see what the baby looks like.

One one hand I am wondering and am a little afraid if the baby looks nothing like me (and how can it not) what will people say? do I care? Maybe a little.

But on the other hand people always say : Oh he/she looks just like you even if they do not.

My cousin has one child that look like neither her nor her husband.

I think I am just worried about everything for the last two weeks...sigh

But I am still soooooooo excited to see what my baby is gonna look like

swelling

so there is not much to report....just counting the days.
Glad I do not have to work to much longer.
My feet get huge every day ...sometimes before lunch.
And sometimes the swelling does not even really go down over night.
so I am glad when work is down and I can put my feet up all day when I need to.

baby update

so the baby is still in breach and my doc scheduled a c-section in two weeks.

I am excited, scared and full of a bunch of different emotions.
This is also my last week at work....maybe forever as I am considering miving back home.
Nobody knows..sigh

yeah lots going on.

heartburn and cramping

So things have gotten a little challenging.
Since thursday I have been cramping in the mornings and at night.
And for the past 2 days I have had some evil heartburn.
But I am hanging in there....the heartburn is a little tough because it has reached new heights were I actually wake up at night because I feel like I have thrown up a little or am about to.
The other night I woke up choking ....thought I was gonna have a panic attack.
Sigh....but I am coping and trying to make myself comfortable. Almost have to sit up in bed to go to sleep.

Heartburn I had in my 13 weeks of nausea too but nothing like this...
I already had no appetite but now I have even less. i have a constant burn in my throat with everything I eat or drink. Not pleasant.

BUT it is all for the great good and I am happy to go thru it ...no matter how much i complain....haha

hanging on in there....end stretch...

I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED

I have discovered a new level of heartburn....holy cow...afraid to go back to sleep

lots of cramping

wow so I am getting closer.
Yesterday morning lots of back and stomach cramps.
And some more today. And it makes me really goofy. I catch myself making mistakes at work or just turning really slow and I have a hard time concentrating on what I do.
so today I left a little early. Thank goodness I did..it started pouring rain on my way home....roads floaded and it took me forever to get home....but i got home safe.
I took a nap...felt better....now my back is hurting again and slight cramping in back and stomach again....

guess its gonna be an early bedtime.

hmmmm

I always thought that people would be all nice and sweet when you are pregnant.
Well not so....I still receive a lot of ugly.
Is it just me or does this happen to everyone?

So I am learning every day to let go of non-supporters....
The closer I get to have my baby the easier this gets.

35 weeks

5 more weeks to go....

i have been super busy...i am in organizer mode.
Sorted out a lot of junk. got rid off stuff and just basically decluttered the whole house.
I love it ...I am usually not good at throwing stuff away....but these days it goes easy.

Last week I had super swollen feet...went to doctor and they made me do a 24hr urine test.
No fun at all.

Baby is still in breach ...still feel the kicking way down...

other than that not much going on...got everything washed, folded and organized.
All I need is a diaper bag.

doing well....forgetting everything

I am doing well...except I forget everything...like posting on my blog.
I have lists and sticky notes for everything.
I have sticky notes on my calender, in my car and on my couch....sigh...roll eyes.

I organized all the baby stuff.....washed all the clothes and now gotta fold them and put them
up.

I am fine except for my swollen feet and my sleep troubles.
Baby is fine but still in breach

lots of aches and pains

wow so last night I thought I was having early labor pains.
could not lay on my left it hurt my stomach, I had a hard time moving in bed or getting out of bed.
My left arm hurt right on the side of my breast and under my arm...I could hardly move it.
I could not sleep or do anything....and all I could think is I am not ready yet...haha

Well my doc said it was nerve pains...whatever the heck that means...
So no baby yet...haha

baby is still in breach but everything is fine.

In all my panic I organized and inventoried all my baby items and shower gifts and this weekend I am gonna wash all the baby clothes and get babies space ready.
and i am gonna get my bag packed...lol

I wanna be ready...

33 weeks .....and still lots of organizing to do...and not feeling so well since last week

survived two baby shower

so I survived two baby showers this weekend.
I am not used to being the center of attention so that was rough for me but it was nice.
I have lots of stuff now and only need to get a few more things.
My feet are the size of a flag pole and my dining room looks like out of an episode of hoarders.

smile

so now I am tired and exhausted and will just put my feet up.

baby showers

So I have two baby showers coming up.
I am really anxious about both of them.
The first one I guess people have not RSVP'd so nobody knows who is coming and who is not.
Also out of four registries I show 3 items purchased...does that mean nobody is showing up or people do not know what a registry is or what to do with it?
Makes me nervous..me and the gal that throws it for me bought the cutest and not quite cheap thank u favors....

the second shower I don't even wanna go to....all former drinking buddies that pretty much left me behind as a friend once I was pregnant...and some don't talk to me or just over Facebook
or texting and some even accused me of not wanting to see them anymore cause I could never meet them on times and days given to me.
So very odd .....

STRESS
this should be fun and not almost painful.

Oh well whatever happens ....I have a baby savings account and just buy everything myself.

Guess you really find out who your real friends are or that you may not have any.

32 weeks.....wow....hehe....getting anxious, overwhelmed and have a lot of stuff to do and no energy to do it with...

busy week ahead

Sunday and I should be relaxed and chilled.
But I have had a weird Sunday. I have been super tired and did nothing but pee and eat all day.
Not a lot of food but often and I drank a lot of water and juice.
Just a strange day.
Can hardly do much typing on the computer because of my carpal tunnel in both hands and arms.

Next week short but busy. Two doctors appointments. And two baby showers.
And work is probably busy too. And work is stressful these days anyway.

And one baby shower is gonna be uncomfortable because some of the people there have told me over email or FB that apparently I don't have time for them...they hardly answer my texts when I reach out...just kinda feel they give me a time and day that I should be somewhere to meet them and if I am tired that day or have an appointment then i am a bad friend.
So I am looking forward to one shower and am completely uncomfortable about the second one.

Sigh.
So I am already stressing...hope I can sleep tonight.
Well I have a haircut and manicure scheduled too...so a little spoiling for me as well.
And of course I am looking forward to gifts for the baby....

Going to bed....feel like a small hippo and cant find a comfy way to sit on couch....hehe

lots of movement

Okay so I still cannot figure out why its called "the baby is kicking"
There is movement ....I cannot discribe the feeling...but kicking is different.
It is a very strange feeling and I have not figured out yet how to put it in to words.
hmmm...

Anyways there is a lot of movement in the evenings now....which makes me know that everything is ok...yeah
I still got a belly button but not for much longer....sigh...for some reason that impending change from innie to outie kinda freaks me out....yeah I know...haha...not sure why but it does.

Terrible Sunday

wow...what a day.
yesterday started out to be a beautiful day.
Weather was gorgeous and I thought I should be outside and do something.
I really did not feel like it but I figured I could do a little shopping..still need a mattress for the crib. So I started driving...changed my direction and my mind 5 times because I just really didn't wanna go. So I finally went to target and walked around for a while but they really did not have a great selection for mattresses...so I left.
On my way home I am just standing at a red light when I get hit from behind. I have never been this scared in my life. I drove into the parking lot of a little Indian convenience store. I just sat in my car I could not move I was sooo scared for the baby. The b...ch that hit me came to my door and told me that there was nothing wrong with my car. I told her I do not care about my car that I am pregnant and scared for the baby and told her I will call police. She got mad and got back to her car. While I was calling 911 the store owner comes out and told me I am parked crooked...like my parking is gonna hurt his business. I yelled at him that I had an accident and am pregnant and scared and on the phone with 911 and when I am done I would move my car. I apologized to the 911 operator. My accident happened at about 3pm and the whole waiting for police them dispatching paramedics them checking me out and the whole drama took almost 2 hrs.
The paramedics suggested I should go to the hospital to be checked out.
So I had a friend meet me and follow me home and then take me to the hospital where I spent another five hours mostly waiting while hooked up to a baby heart monitor.
No food no water for 6 hrs. I was stressing out big time after having to wait from 3pm to 10pm to find out my baby is fine.
And to make matters worse my discharging doctor was my former gynecologist that lied to me for 10 years that i am fine and could have a baby any day until telling me 4 years ago that I am going into early menopause and stupidly asking me if I wanted a baby.
It was horrible...and he of course recognized me and asked me: so u pregnant? I was laying in a bed in labor & delivery.
it took all my strength not to yell at him and course him out.
My friend almost burst out laughing telling me afterwards that he is obviously an idiot.

Long story short....I was super stressed.
Baby is fine.
Had to call in to work...slept all day and am now afraid to drive my car to work tomorrow...

so since I was at the hospital where I am gonna give birth I am now pre-registered...yeah one down
And they did an extensive ultrasound. Found out the baby is 3 lbs and 14 oz. but currently in breach position.
But size and all measurements and everything is fine.

Now I just need to relax and chill....but I feel stressed out and scared still.
I guess it will take me a few days to get over my panic.

sigh

I am sooo weird...sometimes when I walk passed a mirror ...I look and I wonder am I really pregnant..
Or am I dreaming?

Thank god I can feel the baby and I know i am pregnant.
But even at almost 31 weeks i sometimes still cannot believe it.

Am I weird? or just waited toooo long for this?

hmmmm

sinus

oh my god I have the worst sinus pain and headache...not even a nap after work helped..hope this does not turn into a migraine....

Neck pain, and feet the size of a tree stump
haha....but that is all okay...its gonna go away....SMILE