Today I am excited and scared. Tuesday I am gonna put myself about $ 13.000 in debt.

Wow I cannot sleep if I owe a thousand on my credit card.

This is hard.....

I feel like I have not slept since I got my date told when I start with all the medications.

Oh and they will be here on Tuesday. They cost me $ 1000 for the donor. But thank goodness

my insurance paid for most of mine.

I keep on thinking that owing money is what freaks me out but in a way I think I am also scared of having a baby by myself and afraid that it fails and I owe all that money and got nothing to show for and I will probably have a lil nervous brakedown.

Well I better chill with all the thinking so I can get a good nights sleep