Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas to everyone

I wanted everything to be oh so perfect for my lil baby girl....but I am in the middle of my apartment being finished remodelling and moving stuff in and putting furniture together so I had a tree late and decorated late and that just drove me crazy.

But then it snowed and we have a white Christmas and that is just awesome. Plus my 7 months old does not exactly care about xmas anyway.....haha...or presents for that matter.

Hope everyone has a blessed holiday and I will pray for everyone to have their wishes come true as mine has.

hugs to everyone and a merry christmas

winter and xmas season

wow how time flies...my lil angel is almost 7 months old now.
she has seen her first snow, eats food out of a glas and instead of taking 3 hrs to eat she now takes 3 hrs to go to sleep...hahaha
but I am loving every minute I get to spend with her.
I am truly blessed and sooo very happy.

I miss my old home in the States...but I will be okay....yeap

oh and I have no idea what to buy her for xmas...thoughts?

we are doing great

my lil one is absolutely adorable...she adapted well to her new surroundings...we spent a lot of time outdoors and she got a great color now.

It is so funny how people say she looks like me...haha..,how could she?

I was soooo worried about that but I do not care..she is beautiful no matter who she looks like

AND she has a little birth mark that is similar to one I had in the same spot when I was a baby.....maybe a sign of god to let me know she is ALL mine no matter what?

wow I think this whole experience made me a lil religious...smile

the most important thing....while I walk with her in her stroller out in the fields on a beautiful fall day...I realize that I am HAPPY...sigh

this is my love at one day old...

sigh,..,,sooo busy

omg I feel so bad for not posting anymore.

Well we have not successfully moved to Europe. My lil angel was an absolut trooper on the long flight.,..she just slept...she is awesome. The decision to move was not easy but I am from a small village where we have family, the air is clean and fresh, its not to hot to be outside like it was in Texas. And she is gonna be surrounded with family. We can walk to the post office, the grocery store and to grandpas....its sooo nice.

Of course I miss all my friends in the US but I believe I did what is best for my lil angel.

Its not always easy but we are gonna make it.

update

sorry for being such a bad blogger...but wow my lil angel has kept me soooo super busy.
I am happy when I get food and sleep but I am loving every minute of it.

so I am moving back to Europe after 17 years...we are all packed ready to go and leaving the end of the months.
And once things are all settled in...I promise I will blog more.

Dont give up on me yet

Laptop died ...cannot blog...things going miserable...breast feeding not working and i feel like such a failure

Had a baby girl this week...now i am trying to figure out the art of breast feeding

Its a baby girl and I am so very happy..I DID IT

one week to go

Had my last doctors visit today.
Everything is fine...nothing is going on yet so baby is not gonna be early ....whew
good...

Scheduled c-section next week...

Feels weird cause my belly seems so small.....asked my doc today.
She said its because I am tall...so baby has more space to strech out so that is why I don't have a huge belly sticking out.

Hey works for me...hehe

Don't feel like i am having a baby soon....no huge belly, still fit behind the steering wheel easily, no appetite, just waddle a bit....haha

38 weeks.....relaxing in bed with 'da cat'.....

funny things about being pregnant

• your belly seems small in the morning and huge at night after u ate all day
• u loose balance when trying to sit down and getting back up and sometimes fall back down
• turning around in bed takes serious practice
• to get outta bed takes rolling to the exit side and then slowly pushing yourself into a sitting position with your arms before u can get out...haha
• in your last few weeks u get seriously tired of going to the bathroom ..it gets annoying..haha
• your belly has all sorts of odd shapes
• just from trying to getting comfortable in bed you are outta breath

yeah it is funny....lots of funny and strange things

can't wait to see what baby looks like

okay I am ready...cannot wait to see what the baby looks like.

One one hand I am wondering and am a little afraid if the baby looks nothing like me (and how can it not) what will people say? do I care? Maybe a little.

But on the other hand people always say : Oh he/she looks just like you even if they do not.

My cousin has one child that look like neither her nor her husband.

I think I am just worried about everything for the last two weeks...sigh

But I am still soooooooo excited to see what my baby is gonna look like

swelling

so there is not much to report....just counting the days.
Glad I do not have to work to much longer.
My feet get huge every day ...sometimes before lunch.
And sometimes the swelling does not even really go down over night.
so I am glad when work is down and I can put my feet up all day when I need to.

baby update

so the baby is still in breach and my doc scheduled a c-section in two weeks.

I am excited, scared and full of a bunch of different emotions.
This is also my last week at work....maybe forever as I am considering miving back home.
Nobody knows..sigh

yeah lots going on.

heartburn and cramping

So things have gotten a little challenging.
Since thursday I have been cramping in the mornings and at night.
And for the past 2 days I have had some evil heartburn.
But I am hanging in there....the heartburn is a little tough because it has reached new heights were I actually wake up at night because I feel like I have thrown up a little or am about to.
The other night I woke up choking ....thought I was gonna have a panic attack.
Sigh....but I am coping and trying to make myself comfortable. Almost have to sit up in bed to go to sleep.

Heartburn I had in my 13 weeks of nausea too but nothing like this...
I already had no appetite but now I have even less. i have a constant burn in my throat with everything I eat or drink. Not pleasant.

BUT it is all for the great good and I am happy to go thru it ...no matter how much i complain....haha

hanging on in there....end stretch...

I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED

I have discovered a new level of heartburn....holy cow...afraid to go back to sleep

lots of cramping

wow so I am getting closer.
Yesterday morning lots of back and stomach cramps.
And some more today. And it makes me really goofy. I catch myself making mistakes at work or just turning really slow and I have a hard time concentrating on what I do.
so today I left a little early. Thank goodness I did..it started pouring rain on my way home....roads floaded and it took me forever to get home....but i got home safe.
I took a nap...felt better....now my back is hurting again and slight cramping in back and stomach again....

guess its gonna be an early bedtime.

hmmmm

I always thought that people would be all nice and sweet when you are pregnant.
Well not so....I still receive a lot of ugly.
Is it just me or does this happen to everyone?

So I am learning every day to let go of non-supporters....
The closer I get to have my baby the easier this gets.

35 weeks

5 more weeks to go....

i have been super busy...i am in organizer mode.
Sorted out a lot of junk. got rid off stuff and just basically decluttered the whole house.
I love it ...I am usually not good at throwing stuff away....but these days it goes easy.

Last week I had super swollen feet...went to doctor and they made me do a 24hr urine test.
No fun at all.

Baby is still in breach ...still feel the kicking way down...

other than that not much going on...got everything washed, folded and organized.
All I need is a diaper bag.