feeling a little better

So I am feeling a little better. I got a facial, colored my hair and decided when ya feel like shit you should look good.......sigh

I am not sure how much longer I wanna deal with fertility issues....its all getting old and soooo much money down the drain and nothing to show for. I could have bought a car or went on a vacation around the world. I read about all these people that have great success with acupuncture and Xango why can't I have some better results with anything I do?
I am tired of being the loser........I wanna have some luck..........I want something to go right for me..........

I don't wanna go to work with a pasted smile on every day....I wanna be genuinely happy .....I have been trying so hard.....