struggling

I am tired of waiting....maybe having a child of my own is not worth it.
maybe I should adopt......I am tired of being depressed and miserable.
I am always depressed...I either drink, eat or shop...mor so eating and shopping
and the bigger I get the more miserable I get.
On the weekends i don't even wanna get outta bed.

All I do is work to pay my insane medical bills.......yeah what a live.