update

so my lil Faith now has 2 teeth and is crawling most of the time but robbing goes so much faster...

she says a handful of words....but tries to talk up a storm even using her hands like she has got this big story to tell...its too cute

and she is practicing throwing a fit when I tell her "no"...its funny and often I have to laugh...

I can not believe how big she has gotten...sometimes I still wanna pinch myself

hmmm

so I always thought that once I have my lil miracle I will be the happiest woman on earth.

And dont get me wrong...most days I am....but then I have days when I go to parks or public pools and see all the "real" families with the mommies and the daddies and I wonder if I am robbing my child of something.

Was it selfish to have a child by myself?

I hope she will never hate me for it....sigh

BUT then I see all the families that fall apart where the dad is a part time figure and that is even less pretty in my opinion...

Sometimes I wonder if it is a woman hormonal thing...that thing that we want more or different...

sometimes we just gotta sit down and think...and remind us again how good we got it...

my lil girl is growing up so fast

I remember the first night in the hospital ...I did not sleep I just stared at her all night...I was soooo afraid she was gonna be gone when I wake up or that something is gonna happen to her. The first week at home when we had trouble breast feeding or she would cry and I could not calm her down I cried with her and I promised her that we are gonna be okay and that I will always love her and that we are so gonna figure this out. And now she is standing up on everything and soon she will walk....sigh ...my lil tiny baby girl is a toddler now