Today is my last visit at my fertility clinic and then I will upgrade to a normal gyno....how weird after all this time

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So it seems that things are coming together nicely in my life. It seems like the puzzle is coming together slowly.
Is it crazy that that makes me worried and kinda suspicious?

Well parents are coming around nicely...told first person at work...and she is sooo very happy for me.
As of this morning I thought I had no maternity leave ...now I have 40 days paid
and some kinda of phase back program where I don't work full time for a month or so but get paid full pay. And I get an extra 10 days vacation unrelated to pregnancy.

So this is all nice but strange....but it takes a big worry of of me.

I am soooo glad I never gave up. So glad I always made myself go. So glad I always forced a smile and kept on going.

Hey I am kinda proud of me

feeling sick all day again

Well since last Wednesday or thursday i started feeling sick all day again.
Thursday I barely made it thru work and was so tired and exhausted that I was in bed by 5 pm. friday I called in and laid in bed all day...
Saturday i managed a little grocery shopping and laid in bed the rest of the day.

Today so far i feel ok.....sigh

I am happy and excited and want time to pass faster...but I have to admit going to work is getting rough when u feel horrible all day.
But hey I made it this far so I am gonna make it.....4 more days of shots...which I am happy about because the itching bumps on my hips cannot handle no more.


haha i saw a t-shirt on ebay that said: yes I am pregnant! and no you cannot touch my belly...

haha that would so be me...lol

10 weeks 1 day.....still feeling goofy in the morning and evening

pregnancy ...a funny thing

wow i have never been this nauseous and tired in my life.
No hangover you ever had could prepare u for this....haha

Okay so seriously....my 24/7 morning sickness is slowly getting better. Now I am nauseous for a bit in the morning for a few hours and then later on around 6
or 7. But I can eat and finally put some pounds back on.

As badly as i always wanted a man around when I am pregnant. Now I am glad I don't have one. I am sooo nauseous sometimes I could not even kiss someone.
There is days I cannot remember when I had a shower....the other day I noticed I had not shaved my legs in two weeks. Or pluck my eyebrows....
It had gotten pretty bad till I started feeling better.
Lol, I had scared myself.

I truly feel for men living with a pregnant woman...wow...that is rough.

oh and I can finally eat sweet stuff again....like pies or scones....
I could not do that for weeks....so yummi i eat a lot of whatever i can tolerate right now...

9 weeks 1 day....slowly feeling better

conflicted about herbal teas

So I still feel nauseous and I don't want to drink sodas to make me feel better.
So I decided to buy ginger tea because peppermint tea gave me more heartburn.
Now I had one cup of ginger tea and felt better but then started reading the label which I usually read before buying but hey I really don't feel good.
So I bought 2 packages and one has camomille in there which is on the do not drink list and the other obe has blackberry leaf. stevua leaf and lemon myrtle leaf.
So I guess i will drink no tea and wait till I feel better.

Wow i am getting kinda paranoid about what to eat.
But I think I rather have people think me crazy and overreacting then be sorry.

But it sucks when u are cold and cannot drink a tea...hmmm...hot chocolate I could do but me and sweets still do not do so well.

Hey but i am not complaining ...I am soooo happy even though I may not look like it...hehe

not hungry ever

okay so this nauseous and never hungry thing is wearing me down.
And now just when I thought I was over the super tired thing I am tired again too.
Today I could not force myself to get out of bed and go to work.
I have to force myself to eat and I am not hungry for anything...I have no appetite whatsoever...lol....which is so not like me....I love food.

I am still nauseous 24/7 and have a very hard time just getting water in me.
Today I am soooo tired I already had two naps and it is only 4pm....sigh

All my friends are meeting up for Oktoberfest tonight and I am too tired and lazy to even put make up on....but they have to understand.
me and the little one come first.

parents slowly coming around ...dad is excited and mom apologized on answering machine for calling me crazy for spending money to get pregnant...needless to say I hung up on her.

well they still don't know the full story and they may never...
my two best friends do...

i truly don't care what my family thinks but I am not in the mood for controversy right now....
I feel like shit every day and don't need more things to make me miserable...

I wanna be a happy pregnant mommy and I am

Both my parents first question ....is there a man?....no there is not...

Well i guess my dad is kinda excited and my mom thinks i am stupid

strange day

I am tired of telling people and their weird ass reactions

yes I am 41 and no I do not have a boy-friend or husband and no I am not getting married and no I am not a lesbian (okay nobody asked the last one yet)

back to Happy Mode...people can kiss my ass

yes and I am working on not cursing...sigh

Going to acupuncture...hopefully it takes care of my nausea so i can eat

7 weeks 6 days

and I feel absolutely miserable...hehe

I had all these plans to eat all healthy and perfect and now I can hardly eat...i am sooo nauseous...
So I am doing the best I can.

I had decided no caffeine, no sodas, no herbal teas...just water and orange juice. But today I had to have a small glass of ginger ale because since yesterday I was almost unable to eat or drink anything. I have been nauseous 24/7 since Thursday morning and it had gotten worse every day.

Hey I cannot live of of dry bread....sigh

So today I resorted to ginger ale and caffeine free peppermint tea.
Yesterday my progesterone shot had been very painful ...so bad that i could not sleep. I kinda switched sides but have a hard time doing the left because I am right handed ..so since I had not been feeling good and got lazy and did the right side because it is easier ....but now I have to do the left.
oh well couple more weeks hopefully...am sure I can handle it...

tomorrow i have acupuncture and that will hopefully fix the nausea...
So I can eat .....and drink a lot more.

Yes I am a first time mommy and I would like to do everything perfect....silly I know