I have hot flashes again and wake up several times at night.
I sit in my car and cry like I used to...so now I don't wanna go anywhere.
I wanna go back to my hermit mode....but my friends won't understand.
then it is ...ah she is in a bad mood...being a bitch...
hell why do I even bother having friends or leaving the house...
I went to Target and there was nothing but women with babies or kids and I get this big lump in my throat and I have to hold it together not to cry.
I had all my feelings under control and now I am all messed up again. Hormones outta whack and I am turning into this pathetic person that cannot see kids and happy families...makes me sooo depressed.
I hate feeling like this it is sooooo pathetic.
gonna try exercise now to feel better.....lets hope it works
Hi Savannah,
ReplyDeleteYou need to bring in the lord in to your life....start going to the church to find the peace you need..ask the lord to give you a baby, you will get what you want as long as you keep the faith. all those doctors and ivf's help but at the end you still need God's miracle.
Best wishes;)